At a better place.

We have been talking and thinking a lot lately, and I am currently pretty settled with the idea of me working full time and my husband being home. We both recognize that it is not ideal (it helps me that my husband recognizes this, too), but we really do have a lot of "pluses" with the current arrangement. So for now we are focusing on trying to make this work better for us. We'll try to improve what we have instead of reworking the whole thing. I'm okay with this. At least I think I am. Ask me on Friday after a week or work and make sure I still feel that way. Well, maybe don't ask on Friday...those tend to be my breakdown days.

So, what can we do to make a good things better? The number one thing is a change of attitude. I Must focus on the good. I must. There are some relatively simple things that we are doing that are making a huge difference to me: 1) my husband is cooking nearly every weeknight meal so that I can have more time with the kids, 2) I'm trying to get one on one time with each of the kids most weekends, 3) I'm basically worthless with housework and focus on the kids in the time that I do get at home. The result is that my husband has to do more cooking and cleaning, but I'm feeling a tad bit more balanced. I miss cooking (I really do love it), but I miss my kids more. So we have simple meals and not as much variety, and the house is extra cluttered, but that's okay.

In the longer term we want to move to a house where we have space for me to work from home part of the time. I have the option to do this some, but it would not work in our current space. So we'll work toward that long term, I will try to focus on being happy, and I'll continue to be worthless around the house. Other ideas on life work balance? I'll keep thinking I'm sure.